Of goals in life

Posted: April 3, 2018 in Uncategorized

Before I begin, I greet you with the best of greetings, ” اَلسَّلاَ مُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ”

It has been ages since the last time I updated this blog. I almost deleted this blog until a certain incident that happened to me recently…The incident hit me hard and made me think very deeply about my life…what I want to do for the rest of my life…what I want to become…how my end will be?

These questions essentially brought me back to ponder about my goals in life. I noticed that after obtaining my degrees and securing a permanent job, I am lacking drive…I am too comfortable with what I have/do and I am slowly losing my motivation to improve myself! The motivation-less me is not only losing interest in my job but also losing khushoo’ in all my ‘ibaadah. Even though I completed all my work on time and they’re NOT of low quality, I knew I could’ve done better. Even though the quantity of my ‘ibaadah (both obligatory and supererogatory good deeds) increased but the quality is diminishing and slowly (and surely!) turning into mundane mechanical movements and sounds with no real value.

I now realized that I am lacking goals in life. And I think this not only happened to me but also other young adults out there. We have been taught since we were young to work hard in school so that we will secure good paying job and live a comfortable life and that should be our goal. But what happens after we reach that goal? We will start to become sloppy, we will lose our motivation and become distracted by things that are of no importance! Well that exactly what happened to me!

Earning a Ph.D. and getting a permanent job were my ultimate goals in the past and once I attained all I yearned for, I became lost. I was not like this when I first landed my job. I have thought of gearing up for promotion or better opportunities and made that as my next goal but once I realized the intricacies of politics and bureaucracies, I scraped off that goal and that was the starting point of my downfall. But, even with the complex politics and bureaucracies, I am still to be blamed because I should’ve worked harder to strive for continuous improvements but I succumbed to my own pessimism and negativity. I was fooled by satan…by his continuous efforts of poisoning my mind with doubt and I started to work half-heartedly.

The lack of enthusiasm not only affected my work but also my relationship with God and my family. I asked for better opportunities to God in all my prayers but my prayers lack solemnness and sincerity because of the doubt I had. I became bitter with my family and brought back my dissatisfaction and stress home. I get easily agitated with everything around me. I became very bitter and sour. And I resorted to ephemeral enjoyments to relief myself from the stress, which in the end did not cure but only aggravate the problem! I started to realize that finding ways to avoid the stress is more important to me than to overcome them. Satan has successfully led me astray! But God is Most Merciful. He keeps sending me reminders in various ways.

After muhaasabah (reflecting on oneself), I was enlightened. I realized I was lacking in motivation and became very bitter because I had no solid goals and no real plan to achieve my goals. As a Muslim, I know that my ultimate goal should be al-Firdaus (the highest level of paradise) but I have never REALLY understood how to achieve that. I have always thought my worldly goals should not coincide with my hereafter goal but I discovered that my notion was totally wrong! After immersing myself in deep thinking I fathomed that my worldly goals SHOULD coincide with my hereafter goal and only then I would be able to live a fulfilling and satisfying life. Only then I would be able to continuously motivate myself to stay on the right track, plan my path meticulously and execute my plans properly. BECAUSE every actions and intentions are ‘ibaadah in Islam! Thus, every deed has to be pure and good to be accepted!

Hence, ALL my worldly goals should lead me to the ultimate goal of al-Firdaus! Therefore, I have decided to amend my goals and plan my paths properly this time around. I want myself to be useful for my family, my nation, my brothers and sisters in Islam and my deen! I should not limit myself to only personal goals. My goals should extend and include as many people as I can,  it should be glocal! Impact the globe locally. You will be seeing and reading from me more often inshaa-Allah (if Allah wills) from today onwards as writing a blog to benefit people is one of my goals that I have set for myself. I am looking forward to seeing my ‘evolution’. I pray to God that He preserves me and guides me in my journey towards change. May Allah accepts all our deeds, Ameen!

اَلسَّلاَ مُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

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